Letter from July 17th, 2006

Before I actually get to the letter, I want to let you all know that all she has written between now and the most recently posted letter but those were letters for specific family members.

The Outside world - The outside world is scary. My companion got sick and we had to go the doctor's on Saturday. I have felt for a while that I just need to go out to the field. I was wrong. I didn't talk to one single person and I was scared to talk to those who talked to us.

I got back to the MTC both frustrated and grateful - frustrated that I oculdn't do what I have been called to do and grateful because the MTC is a utopia of sorts.

I realized that I still have a lot to learn - and I need to rely on the Lord so much more. So, now I know and I can be betterprepared when I really leave the MTC - I'm half way there.